The Bitterness of your primative State

The Science of Bitterness.

9-18-2014

I wanted to address the reality of the fall of man and his desire to become perdition. God's plan often seems quite terrible. You either suffer for goodness sake or suffer for death's sake--and if you want to win the prize of mastery you have to subject yourself to great pressure and pain in at least a few life times.

Unfortunately he will require you to get beat up, mocked and torn apart for his sake. That hole goes very deep. I wanted to speak my mind before I might find myself speaking words like: "sayonara, no one seems to ever listen: I'm obviously wasting my time". Everyone's been to that place in their life at least once. I feel frustrated that no one stops to hear the words of someone who can turn this earth into a dream world.

The problem with humans is that each one resorts to their ape natures. Everyone with power seems to want to be the dominant mind. Even if they bottom feed or are greedy most people don't check themself and then they want to be the top dog.

Hagoth thinks that he could lead better than me at things he doesn't even understand(as revealed in a dream). I can't say he's the sharpest tool in the shed. I can say the same about Mitt Romney. That's statement I really don't want to think about. Mitt Romney was Abraham and that makes him my father when I was Isaac and his vice(around the time he was Sidney Rigdon) is so overwhelmed with the desire to have dominion over me he's not seeing the truth. Until he changes I would declare to him he's failing his dominion test. Being my father never made him older or more advanced than me in spirit years and yet he think it somehow entitles him to dominion over me. Get the math straight - Only the Father or Son qualify for dominion over me. All the rest are lost, fallen or too unevolved. Not one LDS leader in the LDS church qualifies for dominion over me. This isn't because they're nasty or mean--it's because they don't listen to me or are willing to hear what the earth truly needs. They are not true owners. Anyone who thinks their position qualifies them to have dominion over the earth and the spirit affairs of it. Look at how lousy the church has become? It's a bore fest and we have primative God wanna-bes to blaim for that. If you need help you go ask your Bishop for help. Your Bishop might be Al Capone or Emperor Nero's new incarnation(because they want to study how to rule in righteousness) and the unfortunate part is they may deny help if they don't like you or ditch you if they want you to move to another ward. The problem with leaders is that most of them don't know what needs to be done to the world and many of them aren't taught or educated about how to be a good leaderl.

Before I move on to my next point: Mitt Romney: Fail as Sidney Rigdon, Fail as Mitt Romney. Until he elects to be smart and ask what he can do to show support or hear what the planet needs he'll be just a primitive ape man God wanna be in my eyes. Thomas S Monson: primative ape God wanna be until he shows me any support. When I petitioned for his help and revealed myself he let his true colors shine by doing nothing. Fail as Laban from the bible. Fail as Oliver Cowdery. These people keep repeating because they want to be the top Dog. Have either of these two people manifested results that they've learned from their failures? No.

To anyone who thinks they own the whole show and have the credentials to be my leader: DID GOD SPEAK YOUR NAME TO HAVE DOMINION OVER ME? NO. DID GOD SPEAK YOUR NAME TO RESTORE ALL THINGS OLIVER OR SIDNEY? NO. DID GOD SPEAK YOUR NAME TO REVEAL ALL THINGS? NO. I'm annoyed by people that try to compete to take things they were never given. Competition is just a process that a poorly skilled creature uses to get better at something. When 2 masters face each other a winner may only win by a such a marginal difference(like a genetic problem or if the other master hasn't paid the upkeep cost to keep a skill fresh). When competition becomes so close then it becomes vain(unless it's a great way legit way to make money).

I would say that only retarded people operate under the guise that their money or power entitles them to pretend they can help this planet very much. If they think they know what the planet needs then why haven't they built what the planet needs to make everyone more successful? If these slow people would have listened to me I'd already have my dream system up and running so that people could have the help they need to materialize their dreams.

Because I can't seem to gain any satisfaction with what has been offered me in life(a slave job, a bunch of liars that want to steal from me, uncooperative God wannabes, careless people that want to promote their ape domination etc) perhaps one day I'm going to eventually say f*** it. I'm not going to sit around and do anything for humanity when all I have to work with are retarded apes. The only one I can blame for for the fact I'm not dead is God. The only reason I'm alive is because he gets a lot of satisfaction for watching me live despite not having the desire to because I live among people that don't really care that much.

To all my detractors I'll say: YOU CAN'T TAKE IT WITH YOU, YOUR WEALTH OR POWER DOESN'T INDICATE MUCH VALUE TO THE EARTH UNLESS YOU USE IT TO SHAPE THE WORLD INTO A DREAM WORLD--AND YOU CAN DO SO IN A PROFITABLE MANNER.

At times I've felt that I'd rather be perdition and fall out of God's plan for eternal progression than be subject to these retarded apes any longer. That's a lot of frustration. Now I don't care to let those facts own me so deeply.

I hate to say it but I really think there is no one that can fix more problems with this world who lives on it than me. Period. You think you can? Challenge me and we'll discuss why you think you can and what you think the world needs. The problem is that no one cares enough to challenge me so I assert I won't bother to keep asking.

This is one of the points that I used to let get to me. It pertains to my dream to play Apocalypse, a marvel chracter created just for me. High claim but it's true. I was Adam(En Sabah Nur is The first One). The folks at marvel have at least 3 prophets(who showcased skills of revelation) working on their X-men movies and they don't even care about the prophesies given about Apocalypse. Apocalypse is The First One. I am En Sabah Nur. I am En Sabah Nur more than anyone on the planet is. En Sabah Nur doesn't mean the first one. It is a literal reference to something that Jackson Guice(or whoever first wrote about it) didn't know what it meant when it was revealed to him. I can't seem to get an audition from these people after they know who I am. Perhaps someone in the production thinks the enslaved pyramid plan is best for me because that's just how the system has worked(IE you start like most people at the bottom with a slave job and work your way up, even in the performing arts industry) despite my ability being better than any to play the part. The Character is my personality when I can work without people getting in my way. I wish they would confess that The first one and En Sabah Nur were predictions given so that I wouldn't have to waste my time building up an acting career just to play the only movie role that really fits me(if I was ever offered a Role like Kyp Durron on Star Wars I would play hat also). All the lives I've lived that they don't understand, and all the other things they don't understand(like how I can show them how to make the all time highest grossing movie and prove I have all the talent in the world to play Apoc). All the things about my past lives that people don't understand or criticize I can explain. I'm only a few years away from mastery. Another problem of mine is that I believe YOU WILL NOT FIND ANYONE UNDER THE SON THAT CAN SHAPE THINGS TOWARDS SUCCESS BETTER THAN ME. No one has to courage to confront me on this claim. I believe no one on the planet has greater ability than me when I running on all 4 cylinders because I know how to do EVERYTHING under the Son that a man is required to prove to become perfected. It would only take about 5-12 days to prep my body to put on a great enough show to appear to be a top actor. Performance is all about body electricity, how to create it and how to put it to work perfectly without being burnt out. I won't even hit my pure upside for several years and by that I mean pure mastery of my body and showcasing my ability to bring every component of it to it's full performance potential.

Today marked the day that helped me realize I'm really through with trying to convince people. It also marked a day I felt that I don't like the plan of happiness anymore. I am not happy with who I have to work with. I don't care about falling. Not being able to use my past lives as resumes is a little preturbing because no one invites me to a place I can continue where I left off. Today I also felt that I don't really like Jesus or the father anymore. Suffer with them or suffer death, damnation or perdition is a viewpoint that has been too vivid and distracting to keep me satisfied.

Another argument I came to is that if you are not perdition he will CONTINUE to inspire you to come down to earth and incarnate to prove more. If you're not perdition you can't escape his spirit and he will use it to encourage you to come down to earth and be subject to the limitations within it to determine where you want to fit whether it be heaven, hell or perdition. Because of primitive men and the fact they have dominion over it, the state of this world IS HELL for most people. It's a slave state for most people--And whether you turn back the clock 150 or 300 years ago it was even worse FOR MOST PEOPLE.

I don't want to come down to an endless hell because God wants me to study it. Sometimes I feel I don't care what he wants for me anymore. I'd rather enjoy my existence and not be encouraged to try to become like him anymore. I feel I don't care about Glory, I don't care about his creations, I don't care about his universe and don't care to be a part of him anymore.

The truth is God will require ALL MEN to prove EVERYTHING I have proven in past lives JUST TO QUALIFY TO BE A SAVIOR and then he'll ask you to get riped up by a super pain load as occurred to Jehovah at Gathsemene. 8 hours(or more) of pure suffering. Getting nailed to the cross was pennies of pain next to what the atonement entailed.

Today is a day I felt that I don't care to pay to know everything and that I don't care to pay to live for eternity. I might feel different if I had a few better people to work with. On your final tests you will have NO WIFE, sealed to at least 1(advanced in spirit years) woman with an ugly heart who never was loyal and slept with many people(her initials are J.B), BE SURROUNDED BY POWER MONGER APE-MEN and be asked to be broken down by the bitterness and power destroying terrible development in your upbringing. Everyone around you will expect you to be successful without providing you with more than a slave job. Despite your problems and low attention span they'll expect you to be educated in a system that wastes about 90% of your time educating you about things that won't pertain to your future job.

HAVE FUN BEING A SERF FOR AT LEAST 60 MORE LIVES MONSON! Mitt? Probably at least 50. If only both of them ate their own judgement(ie support the status quo and ignore someone despite his upside as revealed in my past lives).

So that's my piece. It's is bitter, but it's a REALITY for you and me as we develop. As you grow you will discover many circumstances and situations you will feel bitter about. God's method to help you with those things is to help you forget the bitterness and focus on the now. As of late I've felt I don't want to write my life and God's as one being together for very much longer because doing so suggests I must dick all my creations to use the same process of evolution that he has. The good news is that if you're a young soul most of your lives will be exploratory information gathering lives. To require a person to go through this guantlet is not a point I take much confidence in. You will always get the argument that you would never appreciate something sweet without tasting of something bitter but you will virtually never be explained the pain load payment that awaits you(and how many lives much of it will be extended over) if you decide to fill the measure of your creation. Most of the demons and angels to the devil found out the truth of these details and those facts were enough to encourage them to book on out of the spirit evolution matrix. The story goes they fell because they love darkness more than light. I suppose that must be true. The problem with me finding perdition is I don't even really like spirit darkness. I don't like spirit decay and similar ugliness. If you're a man 1/3 of all the men you'll ever meet(in more than 1.8 million years in the mortal matrix) will choose to become demons. That means that only a small # will become demons in a 7,000 span but if you do the math you'll notice a little more than 1/10th of 1% will choose to be demons in that time frame. Paying to destroy the souls of men appears to be the only way to pay for death. Truly life is not for everyone and there have been times I've hoped it was not for me either.

Getting distracted by factors that discourage me has been my vice. If is the way to be trapped into bitterness. Now those are factors I hope to always ignore.

Good luck if you find yourself in similar shoes. When you bite into bitterness it can be quite taxing. Perhaps the secret of life is to graduate from all bitterness. Perhaps I just may do that.